Well here we are with a bump the size of a watermelon. I'll be 40 weeks on Wednesday (if i make it to then!) This pregnancy has gone by so fast, but it also feels like I've been pregnant foreverrr. I'm really excited to wear normal pants, and to have my shirts fit again - I think I'm down to about 3 that aren't crop tops now.
This has been a crazy 9 months for me. A few weeks after finding out I was pregnant, I found out my mom's cancer was back. It's been an intense time of anticipation, joy, questioning, anger, excitement, sadness, and basically every emotion under the sun, I've been feeling it. I wrote a post on my personal blog a few days ago sharing a bit more about that journey, if you care to read.
I'm so happy my mom is going to meet this little creature. I'm so excited to meet him/her. I go through waves of emotion everyday, but I've been learning a lot over these 9 months how to be content, to not compare what I have to what other people have. I know that when baby comes I'll be learning a whole lot more about that as I discover who I am as a mother. I'm learning to be grateful for what I have, and I think Lindsay said it so well last week, talking about contentment. It seems like the most simple, mundane thing, but I know I struggle with that a lot! Thinking I'll be happier once I reach a certain place, make more money, pay off debt, or get a product or shoes I've been dreaming about. I'm learning I deserve nothing and none of those things make me any happier. Finding peace, resting in God, spending time with Him, not chasing after worldly things, that is what makes me content.
Here we go! The next Let's Talk post I do I'll be holding a little babe, that is so unreal. I cannot wait!!!